The Most Beautiful Crescent

"Souls who never smile" is the dominant characteristic within friends whose lives are in trouble. Life appears to be full of problems. There are no flowers, there is only anger. In some cases, this anger and problems which has been accumulating for years, changes into dangerous diseases that can kill.

To be honest, these are sad stories that can easily touch the heart. However, it does not mean it can not be repaired. In the ancient times, the relationship between the physical body (biology) with the subtle body (psychology, spiritual) was not very clear. But in our time, the world of research has helped us to make the last relationship very clear.

Borrowing the scientific discovery of researchers in the world of neuro-science who deeply studied at the human brain, the brain weight is about 2% of the weight of the physical body. But the brain consumes more than 20% of the energy. It simply means, the brain can take a lot of energy which should be allocated to the other organs of the body.

The Smile of Light

"The feeling of being deeply lonely in the crowd", that's the experience of many friends. We are not talking about people who are hated by the masses, even the souls who grow in the ocean of praise have the same feeling. To this kind of inner seeker, their body grows in the crowd, but their heart feels deeply lonely. Their hands work in a place which is full of light, but their souls are completely in the dark.

Some of them grow from darkness to more darkness, whereas some others keep looking for a light in places like meditation classes. A number of spiritual friends who come to meditation classes share their stories, the accumulated inner darkness has turned into dangerous diseases like cancer, some others honestly open their secret that they nearly committed suicide.

Having listened to these stories in depth, all spiritual friends who experience inner darkness are very busy struggling and fighting inside. All those things which are not in line with their wishes, from the different spouse to the naughty child, are attempted to be discarded. Sadly, the more they try to remove the darkness, the darker their soul is within.

Rainbow of Souls

One day a friend who had a brilliant career was invited to attend a very luxurious dinner at a super luxurious restaurant in Jakarta. Since the host brings his wife, this friend is also suggested to bring his wife who has never come to such a place before. Unfortunately, while most people call the super fancy restaurant as beautiful paradise, to the wife such restaurant is similar to a hell.

Especially because there is table manners, everything is well-organized, there are times when people can speak there are times when people should enjoy the food. Do not talk about social manners at the top level. It is even much more complicated to this lady. Such complicated combination makes this beautiful wife had to say goodbye to a super fancy restaurant.

The story of couples who grow toward a very different direction happen everywhere. In the above story, the husband had a very brilliant career, which made him have to hang out at the top. While his wife is very happy by being a common housewife living at home.

Soul Mate

"The souls who are full of holes wants to heal other souls who are full of holes,” that’s how some Western writers describe their government in their country. Endless corruptions, politicians who never stop quarrelling, poor services are all signs that their souls are full holes. The mass population who always protest, never feel satisfied, some even taking part in dangerous violence is also signs of soul holes.

As a result, there is a frightening level of violence everywhere. People talk about violence in developing countries, but even in countries where the system has advanced (and is mature) such as United States, there are touching incidents like Orlando (June 2016). In a very short time, the innocent people who committed no mistakes were shot dead in a public area.

The disturbing stories of soul holes do not only mark the public spaces, they are also present within the private areas which are very personal. One of the dominant signs are restless and sleepless souls here and there. To make it short, there is always the feeling of being incomplete inside that needs to be covered.

Beautiful Old Age

An old friend who lives in Jakarta shared his sad story of being chased by the bad memory of the horror that happened in 1965. Another friend who is growing old in Bali is also being troubled by the guilty feelings that come from the past. Some soul healers from the United States reported, on average there are 22 elderly Vietnam veterans who are committing suicide every day. Once again, they are chased by guilty feelings from the past.

In meditation classes, there are many more stories of people growing older which are far from beautiful. The point is simple, because of religious factors and social norms many people punished themselves, label themselves as wrong, bad or dirty because of some misbehavior in the past. And all the so-called wrong, bad and dirty acts are then thrown into the psychological warehouse deep within. In psychology, some people call it the subconscious. There are also some others who call it a shadow.

Back To The Source

"Ocean of complexity", that is the appropriate title which can be given to friends whose life is plunged into a dangerous abyss. Being dissatisfied with your life partner is a complexity, having a love affair with someone else is another complexity. Having a parent who died at a young age is a complexity, suspecting the neighbor of sending black magic is another complexity. The feeling of being poor is of course a form of complexity, being corrupt and then being jailed is a more dangerous complexity.

Spiritual Attainment

In the moments of meeting restless and sleepless souls, there’s always the strong energy deep within their souls of comparing their lives to others. Someone who walks compares themselves with those who ride motorcycles. Those who feel poor compare themselves with the rich. The result is predictable, their souls are not only restless and sleepless, but they also have the feel of being alienated in their own body.


This feeling of being alienated in their own body makes many seekers keep seeking here and there, and finally they find nothing. Before life sinks into a deep crisis, it is worth contemplating again and again to make the reverse journey. From the outer journey of comparing with the others, to the inner journey of rediscovering the gem within oneself.